Art Forms

I took some of my drawings to class. I decided on the big colorful yet sinister devil head with forked tongue swirling out of his mouth. It was met with a bevy of flabbergasted astoundment. They liked it, they did. And then I showed them a
drawing of a greasy looking character starring in "A Woman's Life", Your Typical Slimey Bastard, Rated "R" for Right On! Then there was my modernist drawing of Mr.Clean.

Her consensus was that I should be going for cultural things. Like Chinese, Mexican or Native American. I should find a legend or tale that is now in the public domain and reinterpret it. She mentioned "Little Black Sambo" and I was thinking Whhaaaa?! Then I read the tale and I thought hmmm, cool but I really don't know if that is me and isn't Little Black Sambo considered politically incorrect?

Looking at these drawings I just don't see it. Maybe my use of color in some way? I cannot draw things realistically so I'm just wondering how I would draw some folk tale. I had a pop art story about a naughty baby in mind, maybe my audience is completely different. In any case I'm going to try her suggestion.

I'm thinking I could have alot of fun with Japan, the northwest Haida, like Emily Carr-ish, Native American. I am drawn to Haida art and even made a sculptural rug featuring a Haida style whale when I spent a stint in Portland at the Corinthian Rig Company. It would be so strange to write a book about some aspect of Native America and dedicate it to Snowflake. I would have never guessed that might be something I'd do. She suggested I send out samples to a certain 'zine in Duluth that is strictly GRRRL. She also said my elephant drawing would make for a great submission postcard.

I guess I feel pretty good about the experience considering I've never shown this stuff to anyone until tonight. What the hell. Why not? Try something new. I'm excited by all of this. All of these drawings are a little old so I'm anxious to do something fresh. I had a bannana split for the very first time tonight. It was an experience. Tasty, but now I feel like yaking.

My secret likes lately have been Taco Bell Crunch Wrap Supremes (no meat, +guac) and my ever growing addiction to The Amazing Race. I think the Godfather and I should do it(enter the race). He speaks three languages plus english for the love of Jefferson Davis! Secretly I've been thinking about children. My mom said I should ask the Godfather for a turkey baster donation and I told her nah, we'd just do it. Yeah, right Paulie.

I'm kind of selfish too. By selfish I mean that I don't want to have to share myself with someone else and Snowflake. He deserves all of me, all the time. I am in perfect harmony with that. I have more intelligent conversations with him than most people I know. I don't understand women who have children and then abandon them for perpetual habitual nights out or any excuse they can come up with for an escape from baby.

Fuck radical feminism. I'm sick of all the chips on everyone's shoulders. Some argue feminism is the cause for the breakdown of society. Do you forget that you get only one chance to raise the person of someone's dreams? Call me old fashioned, but you can't have it all, something's got to give and it's usually the children. For me, it feels un-natural to be away from Snowflake, period.

Above all, I am a Mother. It was what I was meant to be not just physically, but spiritually. Biologically possible across the human spectrum, in practice, a rare art form mastered by few. I aspire to make dreams come true.