Sometimes the hardest thing to do after not writing for so long is to write. I've been here since my last post, I start writing and then I think... this is pointless, what for? I suppose it doesn't have to have a point and I think journaling is important so here goes....
It is one month before my wedding. My last name is going to be Hammer. Heidi Hammer. It doesn't have to be, but I feel like it's an upgrade. I actually thought I would never get married after seven years of being a sole, single parent to Snowflake. I always thought if I did get married, I would keep my original last name. Because that is who I have always been. But I like the name Hammer. I want to be an HH.
I feel like I should have been documenting this journey, but I got lazy. Between work and motherhood and relationships, I let it slide. Snowflake is going to be the Best Man at the wedding. Unfortunately, he came home a few Mondays ago from school with a parent's worst nightmare, HEADLICE(GASP!) and we shaved his head. It was his idea. He went from adorable skater punk to looking like the fat kid in Stand By Me. It's his chubby boob cheeks he still carries.
We carry on.
Everything we do here, our time is so short. We hope we make the right decisions. We fuck up. As we get older we learn to accept people for who they are.
I chose Botox over extensions.
I *think* it was the way to go.