I'm Nervous and Bad with Money

Gah. I have so much crap spinning in my head right now I don't know what to do. So I usually do nothing. Most of the time I float along aimlessly with the slight annoying anxiety fluttering at the back of my mind. It's always there. I checked my bank account and my balance was frighteningly low. I pissed away my 'stimulous' check by paying bills and buying a couple of bird feeders and some plants for landscaping. Frickasse. I have to finish the cello project, I need a job, I'm gonna return to school in the fall and unemployment disappears soon. I can't say this has been a take charge experience for me. I function really well with out medication or alcohol. Excuse me while I go throw up now.