Wednesday, August 03, 2011

Just Things...

This past weekend I had a few moments where I realized I really missed a certain part of myself. And I wonder how I can get that back... I can't force it. It just has to happen. Whatever. I just think of all the people swarming around and those who go from person to person like a bee taking nectar. I suppose that is one way to be. But it's not for me. I have to know you a bit before you can know me. Stupid, stupid stufflings...

Maybe I'm jaded. I want to think there is such a thing as love at first sight, but I think that's crap. I don't think you can know someone for a month and truly love them. There are too many things you don't know. And all of those things that seem so cute and adorable now are just things you will grow to despise eventually. Yes, I can be happy for you. But that doesn't mean I don't think it'a a huge steaming crock of shit.

4 comments:

bon bon said...

nothing wrong with being the cautious one. at least that's what i tell myself. fewer people, less backstabbing. that's my motto. ok, maybe not, but there's something there...

as for love. i wouldn't rule out love at first sight, as i've witnessed this phenomenon. i think they just got lucky in the "things we've yet to discover about each other" department. don't count yourself out just yet.

how's that for a pep talk?
*hug*

Ms. Mamma said...

Ah, sweet BonBon! Thanks for those succinct words! I feel better now! xo

nutrix morbidus said...

I've seen and felt a lot "at the first sight". None of it turned out to be love..But then I stopped believing in love other than that for your child long time ago..

CitizenDino said...

I think this seems like a good plan. It had been a long time since I checked your blog, love the shoes. Good luck on meeting someone.