This past weekend I had a few moments where I realized I really missed a certain part of myself. And I wonder how I can get that back... I can't force it. It just has to happen. Whatever. I just think of all the people swarming around and those who go from person to person like a bee taking nectar. I suppose that is one way to be. But it's not for me. I have to know you a bit before you can know me. Stupid, stupid stufflings...
Maybe I'm jaded. I want to think there is such a thing as love at first sight, but I think that's crap. I don't think you can know someone for a month and truly love them. There are too many things you don't know. And all of those things that seem so cute and adorable now are just things you will grow to despise eventually. Yes, I can be happy for you. But that doesn't mean I don't think it'a a huge steaming crock of shit.
